What Universe Am I Missing?

I exist in a multi-dimensional universe, of which I perceive a tiny fraction. For example, although frequencies of electromagnetism extend from sub-audible to ultraviolet and beyond, I perceive only those frequencies that match or closely match those of my senses. I perceive what matches my beliefs. I only accept experiences that are in harmony with my understanding. What universe am I missing?

I filled my daily life with what I think I can handle. When new or different stimuli enters my routine, I challenge it as a threat to my physical, mental, and emotional universes. This engages my problem-solving programs. What universe am I missing when I see threats as problems needing to be solved?

Interactive Universes

When I try to solve a problem I perceive comes from one of my interactive universes, I can seek aid from other universes. For example, when I’m experiencing an emotional overload, I can call upon my body and mind.

All the while I’m busy creating and solving problems, I’m moving through universes of experience. Even though these systems appear to work together, I’ve limited myself to attending to them one at a time.

What if I live in multiple dimensions of thought in this universe? And what if there are multiple universes of which I experience but one at a time? Multiple dimensions, multiple universes – what more? I ask.

Might I apply one aspect of my imagination to bridge capabilities to other dimensions and universes of thought? Can I add to and subtract from realities that I choose to focus out of and into? What’s the limitation?

I rely on my imagination to give this imagined reality support as right – modifying and manipulating my perceptions of it rather than making adjustments to the actual dimensions themselves. Change perception to change reality. Hmm, that sounds doable.

Accountability and My Emotional Payoff

Let’s put separation, fear, conflict, etc., in terms of cause and effect – natural consequences of thinking a certain way. Awareness that my thinking has consequences in the real world may help me pay attention to my thoughts and maybe mindfully discipline them.

About Separation

I imagine my identity, I/ME, in terms of that which is “I/ME” verses that which is “NOT I/ME.” I look out my eyes and see that which is NOT ME. By simple logic, then, I deduce that I am that which is not NOT ME. I am what is left when everything I sense is removed. You may enjoy the free audio MP3, The Bag, imagery that illustrates this principle of separation.

I attach an intensity value to an “I’m Not” identity I experience as my fear, which represents my sense of unwholeness. Because I am 100% wholly me, that value is an imaginary number – not real. So, how do I go about making it feel real without actually being real?

Might my need to define ME by looking to who and what “I’m NOT” strengthen my belief in never being complete as “I AM?” It seems to me I will stay in this condition of lack until I look within, connect with who I really am, and discipline my heart and mind. Then, perhaps, I’ll comprehend the value of separation in the whole scheme of things.

About Emotional Payoff

Emotion helps me feel alive, providing present experience in the form of imagined relationships. My emotions create a bridge of sensations, a “payoff” of life-affirming feelings to my body/mind and spirit.

Perhaps accountability means no more NOT ME emotional payoffs at the expense of that which is ME. I can use mindful discipline to awaken into acceptance of full accountability. As I bring together the poles of Me vs Not Me, concepts of separation and payoff may simply become irrelevant.

Bridging Dimensions with Imagination

Within my First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble awareness, my imagination creates equations to help me span a broad spectrum of phenomena that appear to be unrelated. Then, I bridge the physical and nonphysical dimensions with these equations to derive meaning. My equations weave forms and their functions into a tapestry of perspective that holds my story together.

Meaningful Equations

Dimensions that have nothing in common can interact with each other through my imagination. Thus, my imagined equations help me cross realities to form one story. They can also separate one story into many realities as I desire. Equations are two-way streets. Nice!

For example, I might break my physical leg, which physical injury may present a metaphor for my psychological world. The literal experience, though separate and apart from my psychological experience of it, combines to form one meaningful story. Thanks to imagination, separate and apart come together as one cohesive story.

One example of such an equation –
An old house is capable of being physically abandoned = I am capable of being emotionally abandoned. I’ve spanned the equation with MEANING.

More examples in which I bridge physical to non-physical forms and functions with equations of meaning:

  • Physical – Meaning – Non-physical
  • House – Home – Sense of security
  • People – Connection – Relationship
  • School building – Potential – Learning
  • Coin – Value – Money

Identity Fuels my Need for Meaning

My need for meaning fuels my imagination that spans dimensions. This reconciles the apparent impossible merging of disparate realities into a single experience. Thus confirming who I believe I am from who I believe I am not. Logic solved!

I set up imaginary barriers to contain my sense of being out of control. To give me a sense of separation between who I am vs who I am not (me vs not me), I do the same. Through imagination, my equations make sense out of this chaos. A means of satisfying my need to be safe by imagining I am in control of the impossible equation.

Equations allow me to feel for anything in the physical world as though it were literally me – all the while keeping physical identities separate. For example, sometimes I project my humanity onto non-human entities like pets, cars, and houses. I’m not my pet. Yet, I can imagine how my pet feels. Thus I turn different species into same species as me. As for my car… well, just don’t hurt her, okay?

I’m grateful for my ability to span across dimensions of reality simply by imagining it. Wow! What a marvelous tool is imagination! Imagine what you could do with it. I’m wandering through realms of wonder right now…

How Fear Feeds on Attention

Inside my First and Second degree bubble, everything lives by satisfying needs. An unsatisfied need can trigger a sense of suffering, which can present as fear. The more attention I pay to a need, the more energy I invest in its satisfaction because I fear suffering.

Could fear be the result of imagining what might happen if a need isn’t satisfied? In this way, could fear feed on my attention? Might I create a feed situation when what I give attention to turns into an unsatisfied need? Could I be causing my own suffering?

My fear-need process seems to be a circular awareness path in which I:

  1. …sense an unsatisfied need and then –>
  2. fear suffering because of it and then –>
  3. pay attention to the fear and so –>
  4. take ineffective action that falls short of satisfaction and –>
  5. pay some emotional energy and–>
  6. return awareness back to item 1 above…

Unfulfilled needs lead to fear of suffering that leads to unfulfilled needs that lead to more fear. Note how often I pay in the cycle above. Pay, pay, pay – feed, feed, feed. Out of control – it’s a fear feeding frenzy!

Perhaps fear is like a parasite, feeding on its host’s energy through attention. Could fear prize attention as its reward? As I seek to satisfy my need to avoid suffering, might I draw more suffering by attending to the demands of fear? Am I evolving according to the fears I attend to most?

How does fear feed on attention?

Perhaps an analogy might assist in the understanding how fear feeds on attention.

Fire fighters pull up to a burning building. A window in an adjacent building reflects the raging fire. The fire chief erroneously points his crew’s hose at the reflection rather than at the burning building. Obviously, the water poured on the window fails to extinguish the fire. Despite the amount of water the fire fighters apply to the window, the fire continues to grow. The greater the fire grows, the greater the image in the window and the more the fire fighters’ attention to it.

The fire fighters are doing what they know is the right thing to do even though their efforts are ineffective. Until the chief questions their actions, he may not recognize the error. A very wet window and a very burned-down building will be the result.

Fighting Ghosts

How many times have I done what I knew would work and felt the sting of frustration when it didn’t?!! Maybe I was hosing down a window – a reflection. Perhaps my fear is a reflection that draws my precious attention away from effective action. The image of what I feared sucked my energy away from taking effective action on the object of that fear.

How do I beat my fears? One, perhaps useful, way is to recognize them for what they are: ghosts, figments of imagination, reflections. Unreal. No matter what I fear, that fear is a ghost – not the object it reflects. No amount of attention poured on the fear window will put out the fire it reflects.

Like the fire chief who directs his forces at the window while the building burns down, I can continue to attend to my fears as I have – enjoying a fullness of frustration. Or I might reconsider by recognizing the ghost for what it is – a reflection – and asking, “What else?”

  • What unfulfilled need does this fear reflect to me?
  • How do I feel about that need? (particularly, where and how in my body do I feel it?)
  • Why is my attention drawn to this need (and not another)?
  • Who has the power of intention to redirect their attention? (I do!)

Illusion of Separation to Accountability and Gratitude

In my First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble, do I perceive separation where there is none? In my bubble, division underlies competition – the concept that one separate thing is different than another and so comparable. That difference is a conflict I intend to investigate and perhaps resolve.

Inside the bubble, I interpret wholeness as “complete rightness” – “I’m all right.”

A shift out of “the bubble,” requires resolving the disharmony within, which could include considering how I am contributing to the tension and imagining how I would rather think and feel.

What might happen when I intend to think and feel in a certain way before I begin my day or before I engage in a specific experience? First consider, then imagine, then intend, and then act. ex: “Today I’m choosing to be open-minded and feel positive in whatever situation I’m in.”

Resolving Many into One

What if I assume wholeness rather than separation? Rising in awareness from my defensive bubble to Fourth Degree of Illumination gratitude, what if I take on accountability as the creator of my perceptions? Such awareness would balance the books of separation into oneness. Equations equalized. What would happen to my conflicts as I accept awareness of wholeness, oneness?

When I cease to perceive from a basis of difference and instead perceive from a basis of wholeness, might I cease to perceive competition, discord? How would I experience my life then?

Inclusion

Prior to 4th Degree I attended to this OR that – “but” – focusing attention on one thing at a time. This encourages competition for my attention – First Degree Illumination. What might happen to my attention when I attend to this AND that as one – inclusion?

I wonder – would acceptance of Fourth Degree Illumination accountability mark the end of conflict?

Might I dispel the illusion with a shift in perspective from inside the bubble to gratitude for it?