Bridging Dimensions with Imagination

Within my First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble awareness, my imagination creates equations to help me span a broad spectrum of phenomena that appear to be unrelated. Then, I bridge the physical and nonphysical dimensions with these equations to derive meaning. My equations weave forms and their functions into a tapestry of perspective that holds my story together.

Meaningful Equations

Dimensions that have nothing in common can interact with each other through my imagination. Thus, my imagined equations help me cross realities to form one story. They can also separate one story into many realities as I desire. Equations are two-way streets. Nice!

For example, I might break my physical leg, which physical injury may present a metaphor for my psychological world. The literal experience, though separate and apart from my psychological experience of it, combines to form one meaningful story. Thanks to imagination, separate and apart come together as one cohesive story.

One example of such an equation –
An old house is capable of being physically abandoned = I am capable of being emotionally abandoned. I’ve spanned the equation with MEANING.

More examples in which I bridge physical to non-physical forms and functions with equations of meaning:

  • Physical – Meaning – Non-physical
  • House – Home – Sense of security
  • People – Connection – Relationship
  • School building – Potential – Learning
  • Coin – Value – Money

Identity Fuels my Need for Meaning

My need for meaning fuels my imagination that spans dimensions. This reconciles the apparent impossible merging of disparate realities into a single experience. Thus confirming who I believe I am from who I believe I am not. Logic solved!

I set up imaginary barriers to contain my sense of being out of control. To give me a sense of separation between who I am vs who I am not (me vs not me), I do the same. Through imagination, my equations make sense out of this chaos. A means of satisfying my need to be safe by imagining I am in control of the impossible equation.

Equations allow me to feel for anything in the physical world as though it were literally me – all the while keeping physical identities separate. For example, sometimes I project my humanity onto non-human entities like pets, cars, and houses. I’m not my pet. Yet, I can imagine how my pet feels. Thus I turn different species into same species as me. As for my car… well, just don’t hurt her, okay?

I’m grateful for my ability to span across dimensions of reality simply by imagining it. Wow! What a marvelous tool is imagination! Imagine what you could do with it. I’m wandering through realms of wonder right now…

A Relationship Between Perspective and Intention

Inside my First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble, perspective and intention entwine in a dance I experience as reality. Sometimes that reality doesn’t work out like I think it should. Why don’t things always work like I intend them to?!

Ever felt like that? Perhaps you believe you “did the work” and yet felt it came up short of your expectation. You might be becoming aware of the relationship between your perspective and your intention.

Suppose your general outlook on life determines that life is dangerous. Setting an intention to accomplish this or that will fit within that life view. In this case, perspective has a limiting effect on intention. Life partner relationships are often based on this limitation even when the intention of the union is for each partner to live in the boundless joy experienced early in the relationship. Over time, limiting perspective shrinks the power of their conscious intention.

Perspective might be expressed as “the source of perception” or my “come from.” When I come from a place of fear, I’ll see things as threats. When I change that “come from” to one of grateful acceptance, threats tend to turn into opportunities and information.

Intention aligned with a perspective manifests as reality. You might also say that I manifest intention from a (one) perspective. What happens to manifestation within an interpersonal relationship? Within a group? How does a couple or group manifest their intention when each single perspective plays such a critical role in the outcome?

About Agreement

I have several competing perspectives in my mind at any given time. Perhaps I want to go to the store to buy something. One part of me says, “Yeah, you need that item.” Another may suddenly shout out, “Wait a minute! Your bank account says otherwise. Let’s wait a bit.” Yet another may chime in, “You don’t really need that.” And etc. I’m seldom of one voice and one mind. My mind has several perspectives – each of which influence my intentions.

In order to get anything done, I must come to some kind of agreement between all the competing perspectives within me. Then I can present my inner agreement to my life partner. She’ll go through the same process I did to come to some sort of inner agreement – her perspective. Sometimes my or her inner agreement is not actually an agreement at all – the loudest or most certain voice (“Mr. I. M. Right”) simply spoke for all. In that case, counter-behaviors would belie the inner conflict and my “good intentions” would sabotage my efforts.

About Communication

Communicating from a perspective as an interrelation between an object and the subject viewing it, how entwines with why, affecting outcomes. For example, when I take an interest in an object, my perspective of it may apply one or more justification filters (“why” or “why not” intentions) to add value to my interest. This manipulation of value can influence choices that affect future intentions and present perspectives. The more I understand about myself, the clearer my viewpoint and intentions become over time.

Why Oh Why?!!

Infants and very young children have only one intention – to live. At a certain age, just about every child goes through a “Why” stage in which they ask others about their intentions, “Why did you do that, Mommy?” Children are born with conflicting perspectives – some from Mom and some from Dad and maybe some they can call their own. As they grow up, they encounter the perspectives of many others, some more influential than others. By the time I arrived at adulthood, I had encountered many, many perspectives that affected my intentions. Today, “my” perspectives are literally those of all perspectives – in ONE.

As I get to know myself, I wield the power of awareness of my perspective through intention into manifestation. From that perspective everything that happens is as I intend. How much of that I’m aware of is up to me.

The Transformation Option

I make lots of choices. Most concern defense of what I already believe and know.  Inside my First-Second Degree of Illumination safety bubble, my choices seem real: What will I have for breakfast? Will I drive or walk to the store? What will I wear to the party? These are choices of defense: Which defense feels like it satisfies my needs at this time? Yet, all these apparent choices freeze my conscious awareness well within the bubble. One day, I realize I want to explore what might exist outside my ever-shrinking bubble. I seek transformation. How might I do that?

A Transformation Catalyst

Inside the bubble, my attention is focused on defense in its many guises. When challenged, I’m ready! Defensiveness kept my ancestors alive when they lived on the plains of Africa and their neighbors considered them food. Today I lock my doors and pay for a police force to protect me and mine. Millions of years of no change.

Consider what that fear thought train does to me. It sets me up to live within an ever-shrinking bubble of fear and justified wariness. Since I’m keen to spot danger – and I assume my neighbors live with the same fearfulness – I protect myself and my family from everyone else to the degree that we’ve become dangerous to each other. Fear continues to breed fear, generating rings within rings of ever-solidifying defense. Safety first and always!

To break out of that limitation bubble, I must deal with my defenses. Formidable as they are, there must be some way to get past them. Perhaps a catalyst.

A chicken egg has a hard crust to protect what’s inside from outside influence. Great defense! And yet, as long as the shell remains intact, I get no omelet for breakfast. So, I apply a catalyst that conflicts with the shell. I strike the egg against the fry pan. The defense gives way and the contents become available for me to create a tasty omelet. Breached defense resulted in an omelet for breakfast.

At the point of impact, the egg was faced with a conflict. As long as the egg remained undisturbed, it would remain an egg, its contents forever locked up. In overcoming the egg’s defense, I offered the egg another option – to become something else. Transformation!

I define transformation as a thorough or dramatic change that remains after the action of a catalyst. The change affects all levels of consciousness though usually appears in the physical and psychological levels.

The Transformation Option

Sometimes in my life, things seem to be going my way. Important people agree with me, my food agrees with me, I agree with me – I feel like I’m on track. No challenges. All quiet on the western front, so to speak. Egg shell intact, safe. I don’t realize it yet, that while I’m busy attending to my sense of well-being, a transformation is forming. Why?

When we were a younger couple, we cared for our little children. They tended to make noise, which helped us know where they were and to some degree what they were up to. When things got quiet, we’d ask each other, “Where are the children?” Meaning – “What are they up to?” Quiet was usually an indicator that we should go check on them!

Peace – meaning the absence of conflict – may be an indicator that I’m solidly within my safety zone, the bubble, primed and ready for a challenge to my defenses. Perfect time to “check on the children” – to seek out and find the transformation option. Scary? Yes, when viewed from behind “the wall” of my fears. No, when viewed beyond fear, as one would in the realm of awakened consciousness in which one realizes the illusion of fear.

Getting past my fear barrier may mean cracking my protective egg shell. That may mean facing such fears as embarrassment, ridicule, wrongness, and defeat. Or, it may simply mean getting over my need to be right all the time. I have many relationships that offer a plethora of opportunities for conflict. Each conflict offers me options, one of which is the transformation option. Will I recognize it when I see it? Will I choose it when I recognize it? I wonder…

  • What’s on the other side of my shell?
  • How will I get past my fear that keeps me inside my shell?
  • Why do I fear transformation?
  • Who will enjoy that delicious omelet on the other side of my fears?

How to Recognize Yourself in a Feed Mirror

“You are what you eat,” is a phrase I’ve used inside the duality of First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble awareness, in which I feed along with every other life-form on earth. It’s a natural law of the physical world! How might this feed occur on other levels of my being – mental and etc. – to validate my existence at each level? How can I use that information to recognize who I am in a feed mirror?

Sometimes I notice I’m being fed upon as a sense of draining of my personal energy. When I’m feeding on others, I still feel a drain on my energy as I work to satisfy my needs. In every case, I feel my defenses kick into action to protect myself from depletion – which depletes my energy.

Who is this Depletor of which you speak?

For the most part, I define myself in terms of my perception of others. That means, in effect, that I’m dependent upon my imagination of you to give me identity. Who I am is who I imagine I am in comparison with my image of you. You and I are systems of competing concepts that I imagine as real.

To me:

  • You are you because you are not me.
  • I am me because I am not you.

Therefore, I can define…

  • You in terms of me.
  • Me in terms of you.

To me, you are your job, your relationship to me, your physical looks and actions compared to mine, my history with you, and a lot more – ALL imagined by ME. There is no “you”, no “others” – only my perception of you – a perception firmly grounded in an imagined duality that affords comparisons.

I feed on you to identify me.

Basing my identity on a comparative feeling I have about my image of you (as not me), “I feel good/bad about myself compared to someone else.” In a world of duality and comparisons, I feel bad compared to someone else I perceive feels better. I’m okay compared to someone I perceive as not [as] okay.

I define myself in terms of others… therefore… When I feed on you, I perceive I’m depleting you, yet I’m actually taking something from me… This because I’m unaware of WHO I AM.

My identity is who I FEEL I am compared to how I imagine someone else FEELS about themselves. That’s the mirror – sensing how others feel about themselves helps me solidify my definition of me – because I imagine “they” identify themselves in the same way I do.

We are programmed to feed, we can’t deny it and we can’t help it – we have to feed to exist.

Using the mirror!

I am who I think you think I should be. I mirror you, you mirror me. We all feed in front of a mirror that reflects WHO is doing the feeding. To ME, that mirror reflects the real ME no matter who I think I see in the mirror – while I defend myself by interpreting the image as who I am not. I must work to deny who I am, feeding on myself – which depletes my energy!

No matter how satisfying it feels, or how determined the baby is, it will not gain sustenance from sucking its thumb!

Although I sense a feed beyond my five natural senses, the feeding process taps into systems that govern and strongly influence the form of the feeding and the fed upon. I can appeal to my governing systems, the mind and heart, to help me recognize who I am in this feed.

Because the mirror reflects an image of who I am while not itself being who I am, I can identify myself by focusing on the reflection (who I really am) rather than the mirror (what I work to deny).

Consider the following types of feeds. How does each one make you feel? Who are you denying – the real you – in each feed? Add whatever feed you encounter that captures your attention.

  • Type of feed (who I am not) – who I really am (that I work to deny in this feed)
  • (example) The “victimized” feed – I am powerful!
  • The “doomsday” feed
  • The “conspiracy” feed
  • The “bad things happen to bad people” feed
  • The “good things happen to other people (not me!)” feed
  • The “I can’t do anything right” feed
  • The “Nobody understands me” feed
  • The “If only” feed
  • The “gossip” feed
  • The “should/should not” feed
  • The “never enough” feed
  • The “labeling” feed
  • The “pessimist” feed
  • The “know-it-all” feed
  • The “unappreciated” feed
  • The “you don’t respect me” feed
  • The “resentment” feed
  • The “regret/shame/blame” feed
  • Continue with your own observations… of who you are by what you deny!

Apollo’s Admonition, Watson’s Seeing, and Holmes’ Observation (pt 1)

Sherlock Holmes and James Watson captured the imagination of generations of mystery story readers – including me. I love mysteries. And love solving them. Mystery stories speak to the part of us that wants to know, “What’s going on?” To that question, my life represents the ultimate mystery to be solved. So, I turn to those I view as smarter than me – Holmes and Watson – to help me solve the mystery of my life.

“The game is afoot.”

A great mystery story begins simple – Holmes encounters a potential client who hires him to investigate something. In the process of investigation, Holmes and Watson uncover clues, evaluate evidence, interpret data, make hypotheses, and test theories. In the end, it’s usually Watson who triggers Holmes into making the “aha” that solves the case. Can I use their example to solve the mystery of me?

Let’s Start With Apollo

Inscribed in the forecourt of Apollo’s Temple at Delphi, the ancient Greek aphorism, “Gnothi Seauton” (know thyself), applies to me today. How can I ever expect to know truth until I know myself?!!

Within the sanctuary of Apollo’s Temple, the Oracle would pronounce, foresee, and challenge seekers from all walks of life. Apollo’s admonition was not new to anyone then or now – it is the basic credo of all philosophy and the essence of the Aha Zone.

“When you understand yourself, you’ll understand the laws you’ve subjected yourself to.” (Carol, Perspectrum)

Conversely, when you understand the laws you’ve subjected yourself to, you’ll understand yourself.

About Law

Life is how order emerges from entropy. According to the Second Law of thermodynamics, entropy is always working against order. Wherever order exists, laws define and govern its form and function – structure. Let’s consider four types of law governing each of us within the First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble of awareness.

  1. Universal – the structure of order regulates forces that define Cause and Effect. Universal Law defines WHAT CAN BE as a scope of perceptual limitation within wholeness. WHAT IS represents its current condition as I perceive it. Baseline of self-knowing.
  2. Societal – a system of man-made rules that regulate the actions of its members based on reward and punishment. Laws are about rules concerning mutual interests, agreements and interpretations. Regulation by social acceptance.
  3. Interpersonal – a system of rules for personal relationships – agreement based on emotional connection, mutual interests and approval. Regulation by emotional reward and punishment.
  4. Personal – a system of rules based on personal boundaries, where needs dictate a person’s actions, attitudes and values in relation to and separate from those of others. In this case, law is about personal protection and need satisfaction – regulation by wish and manipulation.

I suffer to the degree I misunderstand, work to impose my personal law on, or disregard other types of law.

How might I use law to fulfill Apollo’s admonition?

When I notice I’m suffering, I can investigate the mystery Holmes-style by recognizing that some aspect of me has misunderstood, imposed its will on, or disregarded law. Another part has come to the Oracle within me to ask for assistance in solving the mystery of me. The game of resistance is afoot.

To “get to the bottom of this,” I first set an intention to know my SELF. I then get quiet and focus inward to ask three questions:

  1. What’s happening in my life right now? (What is afoot?)
  2. How do I feel about that?
  3. Why do I feel that way?

…which help me develop the fourth question that I present when I imagine approaching my inner sanctuary where the Oracle, my law-interpreter, resides:

4. Who am I?

This last question is THE essential question Apollo required of his Delphi temple visitors. All of these questions are about my relationship to my perception of natural and man-made laws. By answering the questions above in their order, I might get a glimpse of the elusive “Self” I’ve heard so much about.

Next time, we’ll look into how Holmes’ observation of Watson may help me fulfill Apollo’s admonition to “know thyself.”