My Music Calls Me Home

Ever listened to a piece of music and felt tears welling up? I hope you have – it’s a marvelous feeling. I’ve wondered if my reaction to such music connects “me” to a familiar timelessness from which we all spring. I wonder if such music is a call to come home – to our hearts.

C’mon Home

When I was a child, my mother would call out my name when it was time for me to come in to lunch or dinner. Her voice represented the mystical mother and son reunion of my ancient origin – home. Even today, I love to hear her voice – music to my heart.

Like many fellow humans, I feel a certain loyalty to family, town, and country. I’ve associated my name with these. Wherever I am in the world, I carry these identity markers with me.

Wherever I find myself in time, I carry a unique pattern of musical markers. These identify my particular song in the timelessness from which my consciousness arises.

My Musical Home

In my bubble of limited awareness, I find it easy to get caught up in the business of comparing, competing, and defending the right. I can sometimes get busy doing – so many projects, so many jobs, so many thoughts to consider.

Sometimes all this work gets tiring and I find myself wanting a break from it – a longing for home. One of my favorite methods for dealing with the loneliness is to indulge myself with music that inspires me to remember who I am.

Sometimes, the music calls me to trust my heart to take me where it will. I may then find myself deep in meditation that fills my gratitude pool to the point where it begins to spill over, cascading welcome-home tears down my face. Even when I’m far away in thought, the music brings me back to my heart.

Gratitude is my home.

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Resistance and Acceptance

Once upon a time, I bought an item online and then changed my mind about the purchase and canceled my order after it had shipped. The seller charged my credit card and when I called, said I’d have to pay return shipping plus a restocking fee. That’s when the battle began.

Both of us resisted the position of the other. We both felt we had sufficient evidence to support our positions – it had moved from transaction to principle. We were both right.

It appeared we were headed to court. I lined up my documents and so did they. Each time I’d call, the tone of our conversations devolved. It was an unpleasant encounter each time.

Finally, the product arrived. I’d invested quite a bit in it, paid what felt to me to be quite a bit for shipping, and now I was faced with shipping it back at my expense. I was faced with taking a loss on this and I don’t like to lose! Not happy about it at all!

A Miracle – Choice!

Then, a miracle occurred. Over breakfast, Carol sweetly reminded me that my resistance to this whole thing was at the root of it all. She asked me, “What would happen if you stopped fighting and started accepting?”

That had not once occurred to me. Funny how you can write about love and light and neglect it so obviously. What would happen, I wondered, too?

We discussed it through the day. I meditated about it. Then, I slept on it. During the night, I dreamed about it – just who is in charge of living my life?

The next day, I boxed up the item and shipped it back at my expense. I smiled at and thanked the FEDEX employee who handled it. I accepted the credit card charge. As gratitude returned to my heart, I could feel my blood warming as I accepted what I’d created.

I didn’t “give up” or “surrender” or “accept my fate” – rather, I’d felt the love of Self my resistance had pushed away from my awareness. I had accepted accountability for my creation.

At this point, some might expect me to write that the merchant relented – that my “revelation” had changed the situation for them as well. Yet, that would spoil my story with a Disney-esque outcome based on a false equation – that magic controls the universe.

As it turned out, I paid shipping in both directions, the merchant received their product, and refunded the purchase price minus a stocking fee – exactly as they’d repeatedly told me they were going to do. They had kept their word. Resistance or acceptance on my part did not figure into that formula.

What did figure in was my attitude. For a week, I was unconsciously “pissy” and “moody.” I’d allowed my “bad” transaction with the merchant to cloud my sense of gratitude for the world around me. Looking back, I realize how the transaction portrayed and exposed my judgment of diminished personal Self-worth. When I placed the original order with the merchant, I was pissed at myself and hadn’t yet acknowledged and accepted it. I’d transferred my attitude into the transaction that reflected it.

Remember, soon after I placed the order, I was invested and faced with taking a loss – I don’t like to lose. That is SO First-Second Degree of Illumination bubble awareness thinking! Thankfully, Carol reminded me of a Third Degree of Illumination choice I’d forgotten.

Onward to Acceptance and Gratitude

When the conscious acceptance came, so did the warm sunshine of gratitude return. Nothing had changed about the transaction – except my acceptance of me – and that made all the difference. I now honor the merchant for keeping their word. I’ll likely buy from them again as they were prompt and honorable. Why? Because that’s who I am.

Resistance transformed into acceptance. I had felt the transition from Second Degree of Illumination resistance to change – defensiveness – to a Third Degree of Illumination choice – to Fourth Degree of Illumination acceptance.


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Simplicity and Complexity

Understanding frees my mind from the complexity of simplicity.

Okay, I get it – life is complex. It’s so complex that maybe I can’t fully comprehend how complex it is. Maybe I could accept the fact and simply give up working at making any kind of change in my life. After all, I can’t accurately predict the outcome of whatever action I might take to effect that change because my actions are in the context of a complex adaptive system – life.

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Seventh Degree – Awakening

This is the eighth installment in a series of posts, Seven Degrees of Illumination.

Important Note:
We offer here our theoretical construct of this level of consciousness. It is based on our best understanding at this point in our development. We feel we have glimpsed this level of consciousness on rare occasions. It is our intention to one day…
Awaken to it!
-Joseph & Carol

Until now, I have intended to be aware of my oneness, learned and accepted a new language, embraced my Self, and received an introduction to unconditional love. In level seven, I integrate all those intentions, learnings, acceptances, embraces, and introductions into one great whole –

Level Seven – Awakening!

AWAKENING is the ultimate “Aha!”

Awakened, I now consciously realize the full nature of my own creation. There is a new-found freedom as I recognize myself as the infinite flow of the universe. I am the meaning of life and the cause of it. All illusion is stripped away – only truth remains. I know all as I AM.

Any desire to return to the world of competition and blame is gone. This level of gratitude and total accountability illuminates the entire universe. Intent is reality.

I pass through the gateway to what lies beyond – that beckons me to arise and…

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Sixth Degree – Appreciation and Acceptance

This is the seventh installment in a series of posts, Seven Degrees of Illumination.

Recap of Level Five

In level five, I learned of my connection with my projections. I intended to be aware of others as my mirror and spent time practicing compassion. I came to understand that my environment is me in disguise. All defense against myself faded away.

In level five, I began to realize that everything I perceive is symbolic and has meaning to ME about ME – feedback. I spent time learning and practicing usage of the symbolic language of projection and perception, while taking account for my thoughts and actions.

I released by needs. I let go of effort and struggle to survive. I became aware of how I manifest my intent and why I am now open to change. I embraced my Self at the deepest level of rapport and got an energetic introduction to a sixth degree of acceptance of Self.

Level Six – Acceptance

In level five, I intended to be aware of others as a mirror of myself. In this level, I realize that intention. I appreciate others as a projection from within me – I accept and feel gratitude for the reflection life is to me. I gratefully accept myself and release the illusion I previously held that I could be separate from others. Read more Sixth Degree – Appreciation and Acceptance

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