Why would countering wholeness appear as love? How would countering wholeness appear as love? What the hell am I talking about?!!
Within my bubble of limited awareness, I must limit my understanding of wholeness to, “The state of forming a complete and harmonious whole.” Sounds to me a lot like separateness in which I compare this wholeness to that wholeness. Maybe I can’t help perceiving wholeness in terms of separation.
Beyond limited awareness, wholeness may be incomprehensible. Even to define wholeness, I must limit its infinite nature to a “something” that is finite enough that I can contain it in a definition. Thus, confirming I was right to limit perception of wholeness to my limited awareness of it.
An Unbridgeable Gap?
In limited awareness, I can only perceive infinite love and infinite wholeness in terms of limited – finite! – awareness. To perceive infinity, I must extend my limited awareness into unlimited awareness – an impossibility in limited – finite – awareness. Even to consider something as infinite, I must first define that infinite “something” in finite terms so I can compare it against “something” else I consider infinite. Thus, I limit wholeness and reinforce my finite perception of infinity! This conundrum may represent an unbridgeable awareness gap.
Editor’s note: wholeness INCLUDES all separate “somethings” just as infinity INCLUDES all finite “somethings.” Although wholeness is infinite, I experience it as finite. So, I’ve created a method to bridge the unbridgeable gap. Conditional love!
Since separateness supports me as an individual, I experience wholeness in the form of relationships – me vs you. The more like me you appear, the more I believe we are whole together. Wholeness, then, becomes a matter of agreement.
Love as agreement appears as confirmation of wholeness in which individuality counters wholeness. That’s why I perceive everything in terms of relationships with me as the central point of reference.
I want experience! Therefore, I must believe that my counter to wholeness supports that. Why? Because I defend my actions and beliefs as my acknowledgment of love. I feel love when I defend a divided reality – “I (an individual) love YOU (the appearance of someone ELSE who agrees with me).” Love becomes a symbol of proof of wholeness when it actually proves need. I need agreement (that love confirms).
Because I define everything in terms of this vs that, I cannot begin to comprehend infinite. Therefore, perhaps I’m incapable of comprehending infinite love. So, I assign “love” as a symbol that represents, and so defends, my finite reality. Countering wholeness!
Love Countering Wholeness
Because I perceive love as “outside me,” those counters that support love as less-than-whole support me as less-than-whole – and appear as NOT ME. You plus me appears to add up to love and wholeness. Yet, because of my firm defense of separation, all my concepts of love instead counter any concept of such wholeness. Faulty equation!
That means I must constantly test for wholeness in my relationships – testing that always comes up short. Thus, defending my concept of wholeness as an unachievable goal.
Suppose I wanted to expand my awareness beyond the limitation that perceives love as a reward for countering wholeness. How might I get to that awareness?
I could ask myself questions that counter my intentions. Since intention can be associated with need and need fulfillment, start with some basic needs you can’t live without. For example, “If I don’t get this need satisfied, I’ll die.”
Let’s explore some awareness-expanding questions that might challenge limited awareness.
What Questions: What…
- is my intention in this experience?
- other intention might I have than the one I’m aware of?
- is the need I’m trying to fulfill in my intention(s)?
- other need(s) might this intention suggest?
- must one believe in order to need that?
- else might one believe in order to need that?
- is love in relation to this/that intention?
How Questions: How…
- did this intention cause this result?
- else might this intention cause this result?
- might I think differently about this intention?
- else might I consider a different intention?
- does this result demonstrate an intention of which I’m unaware (an unintended consequence due to unaware intention)?
- does this experience demonstrate my concept of love?
Why Questions: Why…
- this intention rather than another?
- do I need this need or this intention?
- is this so important to me?
- do I trust my perception of this?
- must I be right about this?
- did love appear like it did in this experience?
- am I defending this perception of less-than-wholeness as love?
- Extra points for answering the above WHY questions without using the word “because.”
Who Questions: Who am I…
- beyond my countered wholeness?
- who projected and responded to this concept of being in this experience?
- now that I’m enlightened by these questions?