In my limited awareness, I can interpret what I want to believe is true about me. Some of those beliefs I may not want to admit to – so I hide them in my secret vault of unawareness. However, that doesn’t stop them from manifesting!
It’s clear to me that even in manifestations of which I’m totally unaware lie useful feedback. Thus, manifestations offer a key to my understanding of me. In facing the secrets behind those manifestations, I create an opportunity for awakening.
Associating Cause and Effect
I associate my sense of knowing my life story as the cause of how something affects me. To me, it appears to be a simple cause-effect relationship. As I reach for further understanding and allow myself to be open, I may experience revelation into that which I’ve held secret.
It seems the more revelations I allow the less I fear revealing more – build my confidence with each revealing. The more I know about myself, the more I want to know – and the more confident I feel about asking. A sense of knowing begins to clarify who I am and what I truly want to experience.
Might that sense of knowing who I am affect my manifestations? And might those manifestations illustrate that sense of knowing? Might the association of Cause and Effect work as an indicator of what I believe about myself? That is, might my manifestations illustrate who I believe I am in the context of my life story?
Accountability and My Life Story
Life feels unsure until I feel sure about myself. Why? Because my relationships are an exchange of intentions in which I set myself up for an interaction that confirms my life story. I tend to manifest that which confirms my relationship with characters in my story. Even when unaware of my participation, I’ll still tend to experience results that conform to my intentions for the relationships in that story.
What if I self-regulate according to my life story. That is, I maintain my story in a bubble of limited awareness and I maintain limited awareness in order to experience my story as I’ve told it to myself. And I resist any and all detours from that story. Thus, I am accountable to the story, and the story is accountable to me. I wonder:
- What’s so important about my story as I’ve expressed it?
- How does this manifestation illustrate who I believe I am in this story?
- Why so much investment in this story?
- Who am I if not my story?