I have an intention to be whole. This sets up a sense of lack. I must feed to satisfy that sense, be it for food or other. A need that can never be filled is like an intention that can never be satisfied. Ever seeking and never completely finding! Thus, this one thought – I am separate and need to be whole – sets up a need to feed!
In my bubble of limited awareness, I believe that living beings on earth compete for limited resources. Each seeking satisfaction of its intention to continue towards wholeness – at the expense of others. As a being with limited imagination, I can imagine how that lack and wholeness might appear.
Could Seeking Wholeness Set Up a Problem with Problem Solving?
Because I believe I am separate from wholeness, I see lack as the problem and wholeness as its solution. I believe I must DO something to solve the problem of what I lack in what I already am. Does that present a paradox in which problem solving is, itself, a problem?
What is that “something” I must do? Lacking wholeness, I must add to myself continually, just to continue living. How do I add to myself? With a two-aspect problem-solving process – I must eat and not be eaten. This is based on a belief in separation – me vs not me, yet, me.
I need to feed on something outside myself in order to overcome the lack I feel.
Feeding My Need to Feed
To continue living, I must eat and avoid being eaten. Within me, these two metaphoric aspects fight against each other. The one that wins in any given situation is the one I feed.
When it comes to feeding:
- What am I feeding?
- How am I feeding it?
- Why am I feeding it?
- Who am I?
On the flip-side:
- What am I feeding on?
- How am I feeding on it?
- Why am I feeding on it?
- Who am I?
And another:
- What’s eating me?
- How is it eating me?
- Why is it eating me?
- Who am I?
As the one perceiving my world of lack, I must be the one creating and feeding on it. I am the snake eating its own tail – the Ouroboros. What if this whole concept of feeding is a metaphor representing ME?
- What aspect of me does this need-to-feed represent?
- How does that metaphor apply to me right now?
- Why does it apply?
- Who am I?
