My equations cross dimensions, helping me justify how I understand my multidimensional world. My mind balances my objective experience with my subjective emotional responses to them. Equations that cross dimensions.
Some experiences can confuse how I define balance, especially when I want to switch from logic to emotion. Those experiences involving emotions require a different kind of equation than those of logic.
Perhaps it’s easier to see balance through logic in more objective systems, like in an engine or software. These have their own values and internal balance based on design and purpose. Natural causality of these kinds of systems has its own predictable interactions that can be expressed in mathematical terms.
From Objective to Subjective
I am more than an objective being. I’m a being of subjective experience as well. I’m a multidimensional being.
To objectively deal with subjective feelings, I cross those dimensions by creating equations of expectation – shoulds – a means of providing preemptive permission for my feelings while justifying them through meaning. These equations define how life IS and how I should respond to it across multiple dimensions.
I was enrolled by a “should/shouldn’t” consensus. That’s how I learned how to do it myself.
These equations affect my “if this-then that” program to include a “should/shouldn’t” consensus, which influences my natural inclination to predict my responses to experiences, such as –
- Debt, unemployment, painful relationships, etc. should result in feelings of anger, frustration, guilt, blame, shame, victimization, and etc.
- Nice car, nice house, nice clothes, etc. should result in feelings of happiness, success, pride, and etc.
- Death, killing, war, natural or other catastrophes, disease, etc. should result in feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, anger, frustration, bewilderment, and etc.
- When expectation precedes an experience, it should result in feelings of disappointment.
When I expect specific results of my experience to be supported by others through agreement, my expectations impose my equations upon them as well, strengthening them in me through consensus. Am I forcing feelings that aren’t there? I wonder!
Consensus vs Objective Inquiry
When I see life as out of balance, I perceive myself as out of balance. I defend this thought with consensus by enrolling others. This is easy to do because I perceive we are all doing the same thing together. I’ve crossed dimensions by way of assumption and consensus.
I cannot change my subjective equations without objective observation. That requires going outside the subjective classroom, where I’m my own teacher and student and where my work is checked for accuracy by bias. I must subject my understanding to an objective review of my formulas.
I can do that by observing and describing the objective behaviors of others in physical terms only, without placing emotions or interpretations on the event (for example, “that person is walking down the street”). Notice physical sensations in your body. Keep it physical!
Consider this observation as information, a resource that helps me create…
The ultimate equation!