Who’s Accountable?

Who’s accountable? I am… of course!

Yet, do I truly believe that?

I know that my perceptual,  conscious mind defines, labels and creates its reality.

My conscious mind can turn its decisions about life’s threats and benefits over to my reactive, responsive subconscious mind to defend. Over time and with practice this process becomes automatic.

Once the transfer of belief data is complete from my conscious mind to my subconscious mind, the orders are in place to protect and defend what, how, why and who I believe I am.

I have one mind in conflict with itself over accountability…

  1. Conscious mind – Provides me the ability to choose and to judge in order to choose. My conscious self views time as a means of proving rightness in sequence of creation – memory, logic, imagination, metaphor and bias. Conscious mind likes to mull everything over and repetitively compare what needs to be judged, rejudged and given value by me. It’s a kind of judgement-induced coma – a state of analyzing everything in my reality as beneficial or threatening to the nth degree and then turning it over to my
  2. Subconscious mind – Provides my conscious self a system-assisted   validation- taking on conscious programs for satisfying my survival needs and other judgement programs of bias that need defending such as my conscious will.  Subconscious mind understands symbolism and thus symbolizes all threats and benefits to cut response time. These survival responses are automatic and tend to shift the perception of time outside of judgement and choice, and have priority status (instinct).

When it comes to response time, it’s the difference between conscious deliberate action and subconscious knee-jerk reaction.

When I allow my conscious mind to entertain thoughts of threat that aren’t genuine for my situation, like a scary movie or other media based on fear that I choose to entertain, both my mind and body respond in ways that make real what is unreal.

I become less effective in my ability to integrate what I’ve divided. My fight and flight program becomes my main source of suffering. My conscious mind creates a conflict between itself and its subconscious partner.

As a result of this conflict I reinforce that I cannot trust me. The conflict I create divides my ability to create from my ability to defend, which makes  accountability consequential rather than beneficial.

I might ask my two inner selves, “Could this conflict be merely an energetic means of showing support of the need for each other?”

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